Wannabe king

Wannabe king parades in,

bare butt flapping in the wind, saying,

My clothes are the finest in the world–

in all the worlds–

simply gaze upon them,

My apparel line, starting price 10 million,

will launch this fall.

The people hear, but more, they

see

his paunch of arrogance and delusion

while the gun salutes shoot off,

polluting collective sky.

The people march, no king, the people gather,

no thanks, no king for us today.

Contained

Serpentine movements toward

and away

based on nothing the culture expects,

impatiently demands,

only,

toward yes, warmth,

away from no, cold, mostly

in suspension,

blind,

asking,

when, lordy, when, and

is this my failing or some cosmic barometric pressure

holding

holding

heavy lid to the dark pot before,

until,

that heat can no longer stand but rise, fragrant,

a refusal of being contained,

twisting into an arcing freedom of sky.

The patch

Bumblebee on French lavender,

fuzzy turning sideways heavy delightful

flight,

rest, wander,

another one alights,

purple, grey green waving;

a lovely warm night watering

the funny patch of weedy garden.

The unsettlement

Critters chasing through high trees,

squirrels limb to limb and birds,

in flight, one to another to another,

and the song,

songs,

braiding on the wind,

wind gathering applause of soft and hardening

oak leaves,

dark, thick, fresh to the season,

and I,

far into the unsettling,

year of the unsettled,

take counsel:

keep faith, drop the choking self-doubt,

open back up, out, into Spirit–

no flower is itself

without

loss,

loss of safety’s deceit.

Nothing guarantees certainty but

betraying yourself for mere

survival.

That rushing in?

Trust it.

Draw nearer

I draw nearer the Unknown.

How can I not,

to be closer to God is this;

Unknown–true Creation.

Not noble or shiny, maybe missing teeth,

limping, dusty and brilliant..

Stay close,

the past can not play out forever,

only mind does that,

read the signs, look for what’s different,

if, at a thought, ice fills your blood

and belly turns sour,

power has been tossed away.

Relax back into change,

those arms wait to hold you,

the generosity of a reliable and beloved friend.

Ride the horse.

Spring

Bees have buried themselves

in crab apple’s blooms,

hummingbird launches skyward,

chattily, all the frills of mating on display.

Stripey-legged bobcat’s ghostly moves

stitch the garden knoll

while anise hyssop digs into her new home

and calendula flowers at hollyhock’s feet.

Everybody’s humming their song…

Close at hand

The Mountain meets the clouds,

the Mountain stands on the other side

of the world.

Moving your feet, left

then right,

muscles flex, breath rushes in

then out..

you are fire,

heart pumping,

you are water,

blood rivering through,

you are air,

lungs bellowing,

you are earth,

bones holding, levering, building.

Shoes crease, then crack,

soon tear,

body aches,

mind strains.

You can journey to the Mountain

on two feet, on all fours, on belly

with hands clawing along.

You can also sit–

the depths required, the same–

whatever territory that needs be traversed

travels with you,

rests with you,

sleeps within you,

requires the all of you.

Awake.

The Mountain is close at hand.

What never wasn’t there

How tangled we are

in the journey back to God,

the ever-winding, no two ways the same,

trial and error, washing the mirrors

of our own perceptions, struggles and joys of it.

But your way and my way, they quiver the web,

shimmer the web of which all

is part.

My awakening is your awakening

and back again,

waves of the One ocean

mothering every being, each singular thing,

into itself

again.

Nature recognizing its true nature,

life falling into love

with Life.

Here we are,

discovering what never

wasn’t there.

How funny.

Until

I begin now,

and now,

now.

I am born here,

in this,

as this,

through that.

How many times can a person be born

in a single lifetime?

Infinite births.

Unending new; we are

Creation

always attending

to the delicious upwelling

of awareness.

Ditching the stories, clearing debris

of mind

by arriving

in this eternal moment.

Just words–

meaningless–

. . . until Lived.

Dead calm

Lost while the green ones grow,

inches shrinking daily between ground and raining sky.

I’ve set down a reasonable life

for something deemed

unacceptable.

The unguessable carving

of my river’s path.

The pressures out there

and what a life is to look like–

meaningless.

Singular urges toward Yes

are the winds at my back, yet

this is dead calm,

throwing me.

What next?

What now?

Planning might as well be building

with cracker crumbs.

So I stay, and sit, and waste the days

visited by wonderings

but, mostly, placing one foot ahead

of the other,

going no place.

Survival.

Is this it?

The doubting of an eddy.

Come next year, come next forty,

it will be revealed.