A blueberry

Once,

I was about to eat a blueberry,

a ripe and plump, little blue sphere.

Touching that berry,

on its way toward my mouth, I saw

a sudden bloom of many dozens–

dozens!–

of the tiniest spiders ever

skittering from their birthplace.

Imagine,

your whole world,

a blueberry,

until breaking out into this one.

Perhaps, when time comes,

we are to do the same.

Planting Stones

A fresh blood, now, runs from this wound,

dripping thick, womb-blood red,

to thirsty ground.

The trail follows me as I leave,

planting stones.

Each feeds dark Earth,

sticks weapons of their confusion, fast.

My back, low belly, my heart unwilling,

unaccepting soft targets,

half a lifetime on.

Planting stones returns

this deepest and cruel ancestral story

to the Mother who fashions stone into gold,

medallions for witful generations to come.

Flowers may bloom, cool waters may move,

Hummingbird brings those open prayers

to Heaven.

It ends with me.

I walk away into land of blowing dust,

with stars shining straight from the hands of God,

I walk away toward the fire

ever burning on…

You..are..

Gah! I give myself away,

to their judgments,

their expectations,

their views and assumptions.

Silly cat! Bat those off the table,

paw pad after paw pad after whip claw..

We aren’t here to please them, to afford them,

to fit some pre-ordained shape.

Twist as you wish,

reach as is your nature,

climb, sink, thrive–all in the asking,

the taking.

Denying is reduction,

agreeing without agreement, sacrilege.

Nomad, go fly.

Maybe no one will understand you,

but you do–keep that scent in your nose

and follow it.

You

are

wise.

Wannabe king

Wannabe king parades in,

bare butt flapping in the wind, saying,

My clothes are the finest in the world–

in all the worlds–

simply gaze upon them,

My apparel line, starting price 10 million,

will launch this fall.

The people hear, but more, they

see

his paunch of arrogance and delusion

while the gun salutes shoot off,

polluting collective sky.

The people march, no king, the people gather,

no thanks, no king for us today.

Contained

Serpentine movements toward

and away

based on nothing the culture expects,

impatiently demands,

only,

toward yes, warmth,

away from no, cold, mostly

in suspension,

blind,

asking,

when, lordy, when, and

is this my failing or some cosmic barometric pressure

holding

holding

heavy lid to the dark pot before,

until,

that heat can no longer stand but rise, fragrant,

a refusal of being contained,

twisting into an arcing freedom of sky.

The patch

Bumblebee on French lavender,

fuzzy turning sideways heavy delightful

flight,

rest, wander,

another one alights,

purple, grey green waving;

a lovely warm night watering

the funny patch of weedy garden.

The unsettlement

Critters chasing through high trees,

squirrels limb to limb and birds,

in flight, one to another to another,

and the song,

songs,

braiding on the wind,

wind gathering applause of soft and hardening

oak leaves,

dark, thick, fresh to the season,

and I,

far into the unsettling,

year of the unsettled,

take counsel:

keep faith, drop the choking self-doubt,

open back up, out, into Spirit–

no flower is itself

without

loss,

loss of safety’s deceit.

Nothing guarantees certainty but

betraying yourself for mere

survival.

That rushing in?

Trust it.

Draw nearer

I draw nearer the Unknown.

How can I not,

to be closer to God is this;

Unknown–true Creation.

Not noble or shiny, maybe missing teeth,

limping, dusty and brilliant..

Stay close,

the past can not play out forever,

only mind does that,

read the signs, look for what’s different,

if, at a thought, ice fills your blood

and belly turns sour,

power has been tossed away.

Relax back into change,

those arms wait to hold you,

the generosity of a reliable and beloved friend.

Ride the horse.

Spring

Bees have buried themselves

in crab apple’s blooms,

hummingbird launches skyward,

chattily, all the frills of mating on display.

Stripey-legged bobcat’s ghostly moves

stitch the garden knoll

while anise hyssop digs into her new home

and calendula flowers at hollyhock’s feet.

Everybody’s humming their song…

Close at hand

The Mountain meets the clouds,

the Mountain stands on the other side

of the world.

Moving your feet, left

then right,

muscles flex, breath rushes in

then out..

you are fire,

heart pumping,

you are water,

blood rivering through,

you are air,

lungs bellowing,

you are earth,

bones holding, levering, building.

Shoes crease, then crack,

soon tear,

body aches,

mind strains.

You can journey to the Mountain

on two feet, on all fours, on belly

with hands clawing along.

You can also sit–

the depths required, the same–

whatever territory that needs be traversed

travels with you,

rests with you,

sleeps within you,

requires the all of you.

Awake.

The Mountain is close at hand.