Undiscovered Country

Pink cloud tops,
Spanish and boots,
chocolate, leather, and
a withering of childhood need
in an undiscovered country.
Initial steps on a rocky path-
unsteady footing in drying wind,
arms wrapped around a sandbag
of understanding.
All yesterdays have washed away,
a surprising falsehood
captured in spotlight,
the soothing and familiar way a rut.
A task of magnitude
and inevitability ahead,
steep and rugged,
reaching skyward.
With stirring acceptance,
the direction chosen.

Throw Laughter

Deepening furrow
between these brows-
so I throw laughter
into gullies, swales, ridges
of plantable earth,
and hear its return..
Skin dug into by years
of endless search~
Accumulating stillness and
spinning retrieval,
the stones stacked where walls must rest,
the breaches halted-
Wisdom approaches
slowly.

Let it Burn

As feared, the horse
bolts the stable
while the house, with eucalyptus
growing high in the dry yard,
burns.
That horse, wild, ornery
spirited and dismissive
of imposed boundaries,
his muscles work without strain,
his mind unquestioning
of limitlessness.
Let the structure burn.
And jump on
the horse who pauses only
long enough
for you to turn as he passes
to vault onto his bare back,
feeling warm, sweated fur
against your naked limbs, and
take hold,
fingers woven in mane,
his tail twitching
with fever to run.
There’s only one ride-
take it as far as it goes.

Visible

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When duct tape,
won’t hold
anymore,
And the damage finally becomes
visible,
undeniable..
Hawk walking in broken glass..
And the first step in repair
is as obvious as tomorrow-
Questions loom–
Handing out diamonds
as if they were glass.
Unseen chains,
the unexplained weight cutting
wrists,
and this, somehow, accepted
since first inhalation.
No more.
Time to trade self
for Self,,
-that clear water satisfies not only
thirst
but inspires life
by simply
Being.

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In wait.

We piece ourselves together,
Light and dust,
Parable and shrug..
When the birth of day
delivers orange
into the arms of a waiting
fir,
I admit my breath catches
and wonder nips my heels.
At least I see it,
Can feel and
Taste it,
but these recent moments carry
concern
for meaning.
The twists come, the slopes lift,
I’ve got the heart for it,
but the momentum dropped
off
somewhere
and I’m skipping, strangely,
along the surface of an exquisite outer
while
the inner chews in mid air,,
What am I doing?
Then, I must rise, and
gather the orange by the lake
exactly as the fir,
sitting silently in wait-

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into the darkness, Free

Released~
From a lifetime of yearning,,
A fish,
dropped from the hook, undulating
into darkness,
Free..
even the piercing, erased.
Being both fisherman, jailer, and
the scaled one who knows the way~
Beyond this, laughter rises,
the rhythm of current and wind,
silenced ripple and singing sound..
Mind is blue, lapping.
Swim,
That’s all there is to do.

I won’t be waiting

Dedicated to someone who cares enough
to ask questions.
Let Nina Simone play,
while squared espresso cups
send steam up
to meet the wind.
I think I can waltz
with myself and the mirror,
at least.
Crisp sheets beckon,
my fingers as good a lover
as any.
New mountains outside
unfamiliar windows
call
And I, for one,
can wait..
letting tension for satisfaction
build.
You’ll come someday
and I,
for one,
won’t be waiting.
I’ve steep paths to climb
with bold skies overhead.
Feel free to join me,
but make it interesting-
I keep a fast pace and
I won’t be waiting.

Mindful navigators of the unknown…

We’re all tourists. Going anywhere for pleasure makes us so. Step back and see we’re all transitory- few of us live where our ancestors began. Take that back far enough and all of us came from the same place. Literally. Or metaphorically. We are transitory beyond existence itself. We are visitors in these bodies. And, hopefully, we visit new spaces for the joy of it both within and without. May we all be tourists, becoming mindful navigators of the unknown…

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Nicaragua

I was fortunate enough to stay in a small community in a nature preserve here in Nicaragua. A place the inhabitants worked hard to protect. Staying in a woman’s home where both the chickens and the dogs sneak in through open doors, the piglet runs through woods and back again beneath the garden gate, the roosters chase chickens all day, and ruffled hibiscus dangle their blooms for large hummingbirds to dip their beaks into, I met big hearted people neither bitter nor angry after the war, when U.S.-backed Contras forced them into hiding in the wild whenever word came of soldiers aiming their way in the middle of the night. People, even entire families, were killed. These people made it through, though they’d return home to find it destroyed, their food thrown on the ground, inedible. They rebuilt again and again. Opening their homes and sharing their stories, I learned of traditional medicinal plant use from the kitchen to the clinic, where old ways have slowly revived in places, often born of necessity for medicine after pharmaceutical imports were shut down during the war. There is life in death. Such loss still rings through lives here, trauma finding expression in insomnia and anxious memory. Sometimes the roots we send down, the dark rich earth offering solace and quiet and nourishment, also bring us to those others have grown deep, and the tendrils sense each other through tender root hairs. We don’t even have to touch. We can merely sense. Connection grows. And, above ground, just before leaving, I can say that the unexpected hug from the house mother, with whom I could speak only hello, thank you, and goodbye, may have been one of the best hugs I’ve ever been given. I do hope she felt from me even half as much. None of what they have experienced, or offered, shall be forgotten.

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Common ground

Our needs, our divisions, we look to what separates, maybe for differentiation, maybe with the hesitation of fear.. What if we choose instead to find what connects, our shared joys and loves, understanding the common ground that not only holds us from falling endlessly, that feeds us, that inters us when death comes to remind us of how short our time is here, but weaves us one breath to another in the living dance of story and song.