into the darkness, Free

Released~
From a lifetime of yearning,,
A fish,
dropped from the hook, undulating
into darkness,
Free..
even the piercing, erased.
Being both fisherman, jailer, and
the scaled one who knows the way~
Beyond this, laughter rises,
the rhythm of current and wind,
silenced ripple and singing sound..
Mind is blue, lapping.
Swim,
That’s all there is to do.

I won’t be waiting

Dedicated to someone who cares enough
to ask questions.
Let Nina Simone play,
while squared espresso cups
send steam up
to meet the wind.
I think I can waltz
with myself and the mirror,
at least.
Crisp sheets beckon,
my fingers as good a lover
as any.
New mountains outside
unfamiliar windows
call
And I, for one,
can wait..
letting tension for satisfaction
build.
You’ll come someday
and I,
for one,
won’t be waiting.
I’ve steep paths to climb
with bold skies overhead.
Feel free to join me,
but make it interesting-
I keep a fast pace and
I won’t be waiting.

Mindful navigators of the unknown…

We’re all tourists. Going anywhere for pleasure makes us so. Step back and see we’re all transitory- few of us live where our ancestors began. Take that back far enough and all of us came from the same place. Literally. Or metaphorically. We are transitory beyond existence itself. We are visitors in these bodies. And, hopefully, we visit new spaces for the joy of it both within and without. May we all be tourists, becoming mindful navigators of the unknown…

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Nicaragua

I was fortunate enough to stay in a small community in a nature preserve here in Nicaragua. A place the inhabitants worked hard to protect. Staying in a woman’s home where both the chickens and the dogs sneak in through open doors, the piglet runs through woods and back again beneath the garden gate, the roosters chase chickens all day, and ruffled hibiscus dangle their blooms for large hummingbirds to dip their beaks into, I met big hearted people neither bitter nor angry after the war, when U.S.-backed Contras forced them into hiding in the wild whenever word came of soldiers aiming their way in the middle of the night. People, even entire families, were killed. These people made it through, though they’d return home to find it destroyed, their food thrown on the ground, inedible. They rebuilt again and again. Opening their homes and sharing their stories, I learned of traditional medicinal plant use from the kitchen to the clinic, where old ways have slowly revived in places, often born of necessity for medicine after pharmaceutical imports were shut down during the war. There is life in death. Such loss still rings through lives here, trauma finding expression in insomnia and anxious memory. Sometimes the roots we send down, the dark rich earth offering solace and quiet and nourishment, also bring us to those others have grown deep, and the tendrils sense each other through tender root hairs. We don’t even have to touch. We can merely sense. Connection grows. And, above ground, just before leaving, I can say that the unexpected hug from the house mother, with whom I could speak only hello, thank you, and goodbye, may have been one of the best hugs I’ve ever been given. I do hope she felt from me even half as much. None of what they have experienced, or offered, shall be forgotten.

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Common ground

Our needs, our divisions, we look to what separates, maybe for differentiation, maybe with the hesitation of fear.. What if we choose instead to find what connects, our shared joys and loves, understanding the common ground that not only holds us from falling endlessly, that feeds us, that inters us when death comes to remind us of how short our time is here, but weaves us one breath to another in the living dance of story and song.

~Rainer Maria Rilke~

We set the pace.

But this press of time —

take it as a little thing

next to what endures.

 

All this hurrying

soon will be over.

Only when we tarry

do we touch the holy.

 

Young ones, don’t waste your courage

racing so fast,

flying so high.

 

See how all things are at rest —

darkness and morning light,

blossom and book.

 

 

~ Rainer Maria Rilke ~

 

3 poem day

Crows feasting,
the pasture their table.
Waddling, hopping the lumps,
straddling gopher piles,
gaming each other
with beak nips of air,
territorially.

a 3 poem day.
hummingbird at dawn,
at the top most point
of the tree beside me,
singing singing.
i enjoyed her greatly from high
in the pine tree where i watched
waves piling against rock.
chubby swell, at last,
what a winterless winter.

and in the firesong above
following the disappearance of the sun
thousands of crows,
the local posse,
comical and loud,
held their evening ritual
all flying the same direction
to greet the night

3 poems
red wine
i’m here, sewing together
the passing of light from yesterday
to today
into tomorrow

Open palms

I don’t know where I’m going
but I know how to get there.
“What do you want from me?”
Nothing.
Not any more.
These hands carried that rock far
too long..
I walk on and wave
Goodbye
Love or not,
my way is not yours
a bird rests in my open palms now
she takes flight spontaneously
and returns without my asking
Undiscovered story
footsteps not yet fallen
these are mine
five toes by five toes
inhale by exhale
goodbye
meant losing everything
but myself

let go the rock

the strength to be vulnerable
water to stone
endless sculpting
contours held, softened
always becoming
more of itself
tears, sea water, brine
the fetus
suspended
sound buffered
movement and nutrients
blood and growth
the strength of vulnerability
let go the rock
become the water